The Encouraging Crafter

It’s only been a little over 5 weeks since my mom passed away. In some ways it feels like it just happened and other times it seems so long ago. I’m not sure why that is. I don’t know if it is because she had been in and out of the hospital since August and you could see her health declining. She kept us on a roller coaster ride with her health and in turn our emotions.

Sometimes I think I didn’t take enough time after she passed. We went through two weeks of…well basically hell before she passed. A week in the hospital and a week in hospice…then she was gone. Then it was right back to life, back to work, we moved, and back to normal. But things are not normal. I miss my mom. My mom was awesome. She was the best mom that I could have asked for. God blessed me tremendously with great parents. If you knew her, you were lucky. She was smarty, witty and sassy! She loved scary movies. She loved Cadbury chocolate cookies and she didn’t like to share them lol! We have seen plenty of discussions on how many she had versus how many dad had eaten! She loved anything sparkly. She loved any kind of jewelry. She loved her grandchildren and the greats and took pride in how big her family is!

So, how do you move on after someone so impactful is gone?? Well first of all, it is knowing that my mom is with our almighty Father in Heaven praising and rejoicing with Jesus. It’s my faith in the Lord that he knows what is better for me than I do (that one is hard for me). It is my family loving me unconditionally. It is my pal speaking truth into me when I need it. It is my friends that have been checking on me and asking me how I’m doing. It is my friends with little ones, who text me pictures to make me feel better. It’s all of those people allowing me to be quiet when I want, talk when I want or be sad when I just need to be sad. It’s those people that I didn’t expect, that popped out of the woodwork and check on me and my family. It’s everyone who has been praying!

I know that I am not the same. No one really is after they lose someone they love so dearly. It just takes time. A lot of time. We have learned that in our grief class. Some days are better than others! So thank you to all of you that have been there for me and my family. Thank you to those of you that specifically asked how we are doing. Thank you for the calls, texts, and messages. Thank you for allowing me to be sad when I need to be and talk about my mom when I can! I love you all and you mean the world to me. I wasn’t only blessed to have a wonderful mom but also great family, an amazing best pal and some pretty awesome friends!!

Hugs and kisses
Katrina